Day 3: Rush, rush

Man I don't know how much more I can take!!!!!!! My life feels like it's spinning outta control. School is gonna kill me I just know it. I'm tired of having to explain myself....and by this I mean I'm tired of being lectured by my mom. She means well, I know....I think she feels helpless. But so do I. For some reason, I can feel in my spirit a loss of the NOW....a loss of living one day at a time...I feel like I'm rushing rushing rushing....and somethings gotta give.

I have to say I'm frustrated. But I'm also a child of God...so I know through this, I should praise Him and pray. I appreciate all the kind words and thoughts....I'll pull through and one day this will be a distant memory. For now, I focus on today...which means I get to go to sleep! No other way to end but to bid you a good night. Ps...sorry if this entry is all over the place. Much like my mind right now.