Day 6: Unfinished

It's only 2:51 and I feel the urge to write. I have no clue what this one will be about, but once I'm done, I'll hit post and walk away.

Within my life, I've always wanted to know why. I used to obsess about it. I used to worry and try to figure stuff out. But recently I've just kinda put my questions out there to see if I could receive the answers. And I have been. I realized why for so long I've been living in the future. When I struggled with depression......and by this I mean when I allowed it to take over my life....I HAD to look to the future. If I concentrated on my present situation, it added to my depression and made me want to give up. I had to look towards my future to remind myself that there was a bright side. So it became a habit. Now, I'm changing my thinking. Why? Well, because I'm steadily working towards my goals. I have no clue where they will lead me, but I know that I'll get there. I am no longer depressed. I struggle from time to time, but really, who doesn't? I beat it. I got over that mountain. It is no longer who I am or what I'm about. Living in the present is actually quite refreshing. Not worrying about where I'm going is a blessing.

There are so many things I want to say to so many different people. I want to reach out and re connect with people from my past....not to mention re connect with people in my present. I want to build my friendships...stepping out and reaching is weird. I don't want to go overboard....I don't want people to think I'm weird. So if you're reading this, and you want to re connect with me, let me know. =]

In other news, I'm thinking I need breast implants.

Also, music is beginning to bore me lately. I'm tired of listening to the same stuff over and over and over....anybody have any cool band/artist suggestions? I like it all.