Day 75: I don't want to grow up

Okay. So I am pretty fed up with "adults" today. Seriously. I've waited my whole life to be a grown up....seemed like such magical words.....I felt that when I hit my mid 20s, things would ease up. I could wear what I wanted to, go where I wanted to go, do what I wanted to do. I thought that the maturity of my peers would blow my mind. I'd have long conversations about politics and religion...then we'd bond over a bottle of wine. Then, bam! I grew up. And it's not all it's cracked up to be.

I met a couple new people this weekend and dealt with some pretty petty drama. One thing I noticed: people like to hear themselves talk. I met this guy....seemed pretty cool, like he had everything together. We're talking, laughing....then he actually says, "Blaire, you have too much baggage". I stop in mid laughter and give him my best "you talking to me?" look. I respond: "Um, what now? All I've been talking about is school". He had been rambling on and on about himself while I sat politely by and sipped my water, nodding occasionally. All of a sudden, I'm the one that needs fixing? What happened to your manners, rambo? Did they disappear with your neck? Then he goes "You know what you're problem is? You think the world owes you something." Totally threw me off. I LITERALLY had said maybe 30 words during our 1 1/2 hour conversation. So I kinda shrug and say, "You're wrong, but I respect your opinion". Then he launches into how women these days this...and blah blah that. I had to control every single muscle in my face from giving away my inner feelings....in the form of a sneer. It's just tiresome, really, being around self-absorbed people.

My household is under some major stress right now. Summer is creeping in, which means we'll all be stuck indoors, sucking up the air conditioning. I really am going to have to pick up a hobby or two. Perhaps I'll start hiking again.

One thing is for sure: I'm fairly tired of meeting the same old people. Where are my adventure seeking, stay up all night and talk friends? Where are my drink wine and play putt-putt buddies after having a heated discussion about the tv show cheaters? Why do people take things so seriously? Wow. I never thought I'd be the one to tell people to lighten up. Interesting turn of events.