Day 84: Believe it anyway

Today was a lazy day for me. I pretty much did nothing. I did finish reading an awesome new(ish) book by Dean Koontz called Velocity. Very good, and not as gory as some of his previous ones. I watched a lot of COPS, which always makes me happy. I didn't feel so hot, thought. Felt kinda achy and cold. I'm sure it'll pass.

I thought a lot today....about my past, present, and future. About where I wanted to see myself in five to ten years. The truth is, I'm not sure how it's all going to work out...I just believe it will. That's one of the many benefits of faith....you don't have to see it to believe it. Right now, my mind is telling me I'm crazy, thinking that things will work out not only for my greater good, but will also work out like I want them to....I had to remind myself that even if it seems too good to be true, it isn't...especially when God is involved. I'll believe in my dreams, anyway. Funny thing is, my dreams aren't that huge...mostly simple. And involve love. I've hit a small snag in my weight loss...nothing I can't overcome. I think I need to re-evaluate what I eat......I again have to keep reminding myself that it's a process. It's so cool to look in the mirror and see I still have a ways to go, but I've also come very far. Having a "fat day" sucks, which today was for me....but I'll believe that my goals will not only be accomplished but will exceed my expectations.

When life tells me I can't, I remind myself that I can...and I will. When life tries to nudge me towards giving up, I simply remind life that what I have inside of me is far greater than what will attack my on the outside. And you can't beat that with a ten foot pole.