Day 91.5: Second start

Day 91.5: Second start
Troy called me today and asked if I would like to train with him again. Hell yes I would! So I headed over to xtreme fitness. We took my measurements and weighed me again (according to the scale, I've gained. I almost cried). Then he showed me a ton of machines and announced that I would out on every machine in that place. He also took me to a bench and showed me some exercises with dumbbells....which was weird because they felt so much different than machine exercises. I even met Reggie, Troy's trainer. He's super nice....and buff, dear lord, buff. He took my measurements and weight and calculated all this stuff....for instance, according to some chart, I should weigh 164 pounds. Which means I would need to lose 73 pounds to achieve that goal. At 8 pounds a month, that would take me roughly about 10.5 months. He was also able to determine how many grams of carbs, protein and fats my body needs as well as water. I am to drink 118 oz of water per day....and Reggie tailored my eating as well. I will admit that I am fairly overwhelmed. Troy asked me how I was feeling and I told him that it kinda made me sad to see my weight....he reminded me that it took me a long time to gain the weight....which is a lot more fun than losing the weight. I explained that I feel like I'm come far, but still have so much to lose. This time around, I think Troy understands what I'm saying....he's training to be in a body building competition in August...so he understands what it feels like to know your goal, look in the mirror and see that you've yet to attain it.

I really hope he and I are consistent this time. And that I don't pass out. For some reason, it feels a lot different...I think it has something to do with the fact that I've changed a bit over the past few months. We haven't seen each other since late March, early April and so, I'm different....in a good way. In a more down-to-earth, less self-conscious way. I'm sure it also has something to do with the fact that I got my hair did today....so I feel extra pretty. It was nice, being in that kind of routine again.

I really hope that this is the beginning of my answered prayer. This goal, it's been so long in achieving. It's beyond frustrating....but then again, I suppose that that's what will feel good in the end. All of my hard work will pay off, in the form of rock hard abs and a tight butt.